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this is somewhere in the skies with ryan

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spread

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hey guys ryan sprague here from summer

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in the skies and welcome to a very

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special live stream tonight here where

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i'm going to be reading a very

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interesting chapter from my book

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somewhere in the skies um so before we

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get to that just want to say hello to

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everyone in the chat hi esmerelda hello

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alien girl thank you so much for being

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here

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um

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yeah so this is gonna be cool this is

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one of the most interesting chapters and

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one of the most talked about chapters

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from my my book uh both editions

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2016 edition and the 2020

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2020 edition i forgot which year the

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second volume was uh published but um

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yeah this is going to be just kind of

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like a read along i'm going to read the

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chapter i've got some visuals to uh

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to show you guys as well with that

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um but before we do that i did want to

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share some exciting news if you haven't

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been to your local grocery store

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or barnes and noble or convenience store

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uh this magazine that came out um i

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believe it's from life magazine uh

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called aliens um why you should believe

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right in the towards the end of it they

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had this really cool

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uh thing about which podcasts you should

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listen to

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that have to do with ufos and you'll

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notice a very

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interesting one right there we've got

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somewhere in the skies we've got ufo

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chronicles we've got hysteria 51 we've

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got alien theorists theorizing we've got

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unknown the podcast so yeah really cool

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write-up in this magazine um so if you

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haven't already be sure to try to find

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this in your local stores i don't know

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if it's just in the u.s um but yeah i

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thought that was pretty cool um a

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listener of the show happened to just be

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in an airport and and sent me a photo so

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i immediately went out and grabbed a

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copy so yeah check that out if you can

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if you guys have any questions tonight

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while i'm reading this chapter i'm going

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to kind of read it and give some

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commentary along the way from it as well

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um this should be pretty fun you know i

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think we could use that in the world

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right now so thank you thank you for

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everyone who's hopped in tonight hello

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a51 watcher

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hello hillary hello

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we've got uh metal hendrix jason hello

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hello everybody thank you so much for

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being here um so i have a cool slideshow

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i'm going to set up for you guys here

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so yeah tonight we are going to be

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hearing chapter 14 from my book uh my

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weekend in the woods with ufo abductees

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and uh this was an interesting one i had

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the opportunity during the research for

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my book to join a group of individuals

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who have claimed to have been

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experiencers or abducted by aliens and

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they were going to get together kind of

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like a support group and talk about

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their experiences

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and i was very honored to have been

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invited as the non-experiencer uh to

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come and kind of just hear the stories

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and and hear how how these people

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interact with one another and um and how

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those conversations go uh for my

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research for the book so i thought it

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would be pretty cool hello to bn i

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appreciate you guys being here

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welcome welcome everyone so i guess you

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know without further ado guys we're

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going to hop into it like i mentioned

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this this chapter comes from my book

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somewhere in the skies which is

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out in all their amazing books that are

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uh what does bien say here

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nice boo

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awesome um so let's just dive into it

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guys this is the chapter from my book

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called my weekend in the woods with ufo

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it was late march of 2015 winter had

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officially turned to spring but you

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wouldn't be able to tell from the frigid

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temperatures plaguing the east coast

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jane and i rode the train upstate from

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new york city to saranac lake a

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beautiful town tucked snugly into the

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adirondack mountains

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we had been craving a weekend away from

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the city for months now having suffered

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a very harsh winter and didn't seem to

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be letting up anytime soon

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as the train chugged its way out of

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manhattan the ride gradually became

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became a sight to behold

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endless stretches of frozen lakes and

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snow-filled pine trees surrounded us

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like a colorado winter

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we'd been invited by a close friend and

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colleague mike cleland to join him and a

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few others for a weekend a weekend of

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rest relaxation and friendly

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mike had recently moved from the rockies

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to new york state taking up residence in

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a cozy bed and breakfast run by his

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partner andrea

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and this was that bed and breakfast

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i'll do a little commentary as well

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while we're doing this guys this place

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is really cool tucked really snugly in

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while uh with skiing and hiking season

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winding down the town truly served up

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the dead silence we had yearned for

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the bed and breakfast appropriately

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named the doctors inn had once housed

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many physicians who treated tuberculosis

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now the sanatorium sat vacant its iron

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this was going to be an interesting stay

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the doctors inn experiencing its slowest

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time of the year would fill its current

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greeting us upon arrival was spazzy a

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cream-colored feline with stunning black

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she timidly welcomed us with nudges and

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andrea with a warm smile took our coats

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and made us feel like we just walked

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besides jane and me everyone in the

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house had met at an event in portland

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maine in september of 2014.

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the event was called experience or speak

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and it included about a dozen

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speaking about their experiences

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romance blossomed almost immediately

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rachel hesitant to attend this

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the courage to drive north by herself

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individuals who now stood before us

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lee claiming no direct experiences with

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ufos or alien presences had always been

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fascinated by the topic and had

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impulsively attended the main event

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give me a break here guys you just need

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if you're just joining us guys i'm

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reading a chapter from my book called my

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weekend in the woods with ufo abductees

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bien says we get photos awesome

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little spooky i'm not gonna lie the

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abandoned uh tuberculosis ward around us

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completely honest uh but we'll get to

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the spooky stuff in a little bit hillary

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all right oh bn asks ufo jane no

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actually bien uh with me was my partner

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in life uh jane whose name is jane as

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god bless her god bless her for coming

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we arrived just as dinner was being

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prepared i was immediately put on

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having just bragged about making dinner

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for jane a few nights prior mike

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experiencers was rather intimidating but

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not knowing how to mince garlic in front

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of a seasoned cook was definitely a

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modest crush to my ego

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as i continued following mike's

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instructions i bega excuse me i began to

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realize that i wasn't an outsider

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observing these individuals as subjects

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for a book

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i was here as a friend and to eat

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home-cooked meals something rare in my

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daily routine of living in new york city

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as i watched mike prepare a bowl of

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spices i began to remember when i had

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although we previously communicated

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online several times we'd yet to

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converse face to face

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that all changed in 2016 in phoenix

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when we met at the international ufo

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congress the largest ufo conference in

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we'd spend the next week running into

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one another and having impromptu

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conversations lasting late into the

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throughout those conversations mike's

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highly viewed blog hidden experience

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would come up many times

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i'd spend many sleepless nights pouring

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over this blog and it was rewarding to

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finally put a face to the words

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mike was a lifelong experiencer who

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chronicled events in great detail on

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he would introduce the blog on the home

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page of his website as such

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quote this was a time when i was

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swallowed up in a sort of existential

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crisis the blog originally started as a

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way for me to try and make sense of some

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weird personal experiences

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i did it as a kind of sociological

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experiment i wanted to wrestle with some

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challenging memories in a very public

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forum but as time went on i started

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adding other content things i found

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interesting or relevant to the core

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topics end quote

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the sociological experiment was indeed

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working as hundreds of new readers began

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visiting the blog

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every week

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and other experiencers came forward to

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tell their own stories

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mike had opened the doors for many

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individuals and even found connections

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to others that would aid him in his

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one of the most one of the first entries

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i'd come across was an event that

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happened to mike when he was 12 years

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old the year was 1974 and he was living

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in a quiet suburb of detroit michigan

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after attending a football game at the

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local high school he and a friend made

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the leisurely half-mile trek home by

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foot taking in the pleasant autumn air

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mike would say we were in front of a

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house where an elementary school friend

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and just as they passed the house a

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sudden flash of orange light lit up the

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entire sky

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quote it was bold and jarring he

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remembered it felt like someone just

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flipped a switch and the sky lit up and

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then went back to normal

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as soon as it happened it was gone it

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was completely silent we were surprised

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and both responded with what just

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welcome everyone's

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welcome to the chat everyone if you're

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just joining us i'm reading a chapter

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from my book somewhere in the skies

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we're getting to the good stuff

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mike and his friend parted ways still

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shaken by the sudden flash of light

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when he finally made it home mike

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noticed something even stranger

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quote i was excited to get home and

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watch a television show i really love

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that started at 10 pm

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i remember having left the football game

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in order to get home and plenty of time

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so i could watch the show

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but just as mike entered his home his

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parents were waiting for him upset

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mike assuming he had arrived home around

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9 30 p.m was shocked when his parents

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told him it was now 11 p.m

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where had the last hour and a half gone

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it was as if the time had been

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when mike returned to school the

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following monday he sat with a group of

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friends in the cafeteria they huddled

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around him as he began to explain the

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strange burst of light he had witnessed

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his friend who shared the experience

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chimed in eagerly as he joined the group

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it was a ufo with lights and everything

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the friend said mike sat confused

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he thought to himself i didn't see

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anything with lights

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did he see something i hadn't

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mike replayed that bright flash in his

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mind the smoldering colors burned into

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his memory

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but no ufo

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feeling almost a sense of jealousy that

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he hadn't witnessed a solid object mike

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remained quiet the event shimmering in

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his mind for many years to follow could

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a ufo as his friend had described been

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responsible for the apparent missing

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time mike had experienced as he stepped

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foot into his home that night

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this would be one of the first major

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events mike experience

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all right we'll keep going in a minute

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here guys

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oh it's so dry into my apartment i

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thank you for joining us tonight guys if

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you're just hopping in i'm reading a

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chapter from my book somewhere in the

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skies a human approach to the ufo

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phenomenon

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uh you could find it in paperback ebook

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and audiobook on amazon barnes noble or

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esmeralda says missing time how classic

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yes very classic very very classic um it

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guys if you do want to help the show out

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tonight uh you can either support us

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through our patreon campaign which the

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link is below or the super chat um super

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stickers

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are open as well um if you want to help

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the show out

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every bit goes back into uh the show uh

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making it continue and grow so thank you

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thank you for all of your support

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all right let's get back to the book

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let's see

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where we left off it most certainly was

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not mike's last experience

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so i thought maybe after dinner we'd all

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sit by the fire and share some stories

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mike could snap me back into uh

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real time here placing a few items of

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food in the oven

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my mind returned to the kitchen to smell

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of fresh spices hitting me

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a burst of laughter from the living room

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filled the cabin

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things were turning light as lee entered

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the kitchen having hit the punch line of

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a joke mike and i had clearly missed out

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on

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he handed us both a cup heading back

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into the living room to entertain an

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attentive crowd

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i could faintly hear jane in the other

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room her warm familiar laugh assuring me

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she was opening up to this group of

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people

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months earlier she had agreed to be the

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editor for my book i had read several

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sociological papers she'd written and

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was impressed with her attention to

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detail expensive insight and solid grasp

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of grammar this besides her

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unconditional support compelled me to

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invite her to this weekend getaway with

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mike in the group

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being very interested in the ufo topic

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jane was also curious what the aftermath

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held for those who'd had experiences

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so it made perfect sense to invite her

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along not only as my partner but to

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glimpse into the everyday lives of these

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seemingly normal people with

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as mike moved a heaping pile of noodles

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from colander to pot i could see spazzy

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creeping her head around the corner of

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the dining room

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there's fazzy that's spazzy the actual

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cat

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oh she was so cute

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her nose and eyes shot up looking at me

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with a sense of urgency the activity in

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the house was clearly more than she was

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used to she stayed in the doorway her

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deep orbital eyes bouncing my reflection

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back at me i stared at her for a moment

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those eyes reminded me of another

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experience mike once detailed in his

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it was february of 1993. mike was now 31

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years old and living in royal maine as

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he lay in bed that winter evening a

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bright light began to illuminate his

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bedroom window

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this wasn't that uncommon for the mere

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fact that a motion sensor light had been

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set up to catch any sudden movement

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approaching the house

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the most common culprits were cars

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passing by or the occasional deer

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wandering off the beaten path

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mike fully aware of the extreme

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sensitivity of the motion light did not

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think much of it but as he propped

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himself up and looked out the window it

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was clear that this wasn't the sensor

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light and it most definitely wasn't deer

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backlit by a small unknown light source

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five small figures stood on top of the

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snow

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walking toward the house

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these figures in mike's own words were

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quote spindly entities that had very

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skinny bodies and big black eyes end

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quote

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the entities drew closer

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one would assume that in this situation

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he might hop out of bed attempt to call

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for help or even approach the possible

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threat

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but his actual response surprised even

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mike

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quote

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i nonchalantly laid my head down on the

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pillow and promptly fell back asleep

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i felt absolutely empty of emotion

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end quote

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it was almost as if mike had somehow

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control had been somehow controlled like

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oh yes they're here let's just shut down

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so while his first experiences were

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undoubtedly steeped in reality mike

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struggled for some time with this memory

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of 1993 and the entities on the lawn

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according to him it all could have just

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been a dream but one that seemed all too

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real

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mike would say quote i saw something but

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at the same time i truly do not know if

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it happened in this reality

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that may sound hard to grasp but it is

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the only way i can honestly depict the

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experience end quote

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this sense of a dreamlike state was

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eerily similar to many other stories i

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had heard

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in researching my book

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mike would awake the next morning

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remembering the experience vividly but

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unable to shake the feeling that

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whatever had happened it was leading

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down a road that he couldn't seem to

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hillary says too bad he didn't have

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security cameras yeah right could you

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imagine if we got those five greys on

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camera

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uh

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i just i don't know what to make of this

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guys this is a little aside um

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this idea of like seeing them and then

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being like okay go back to bed i've

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heard this in many other stories as well

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people who saw ufos and had some sort of

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uh like

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almost like

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i don't know switch flipping them or

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very very odd

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anyways let's get back to it here

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let's see let's see

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once again mike broke me out of this

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days of remembering his stories from his

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blog

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he would say to me quote maybe tomorrow

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you and jane can head down to lake

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placid we'll give you the car

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i snap back to my current reality a

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delicious aroma in the room hitting me

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all at once

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dinner was almost ready i smiled and

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nodded seeing spazzy's tail sweep along

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the door frame as she disappeared from

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sight

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mike headed into the dining room to help

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set up the table

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i trailed behind for a moment now

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noticing the bright glare of the ceiling

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light shining down on me

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i stared into it remembering one of the

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most intriguing of mike's experiences to

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mind control esmeralda says yeah it's

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possible

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here's mike's next experience

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it was may of 2010 mike was now living

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in idaho a close friend of his natasha

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flew in from germany to explore the

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beautiful canyons and sandstone of the

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in colorado is that right

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yes i've read that wrong excuse me guys

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mike was living in colorado there we go

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he would meet up with her to join in on

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a two-week camping trip late into the

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trip the brakes on mike's car began to

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give out

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fearing danger they would find

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themselves in an auto repair shop in the

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small town of cortez

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they learned

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that it would be a few days before the

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00:23:55,909 --> 00:23:53,919
proper parts could be shipped

560
00:23:58,149 --> 00:23:55,919
this prompted mike and natasha to spend

561
00:24:00,070 --> 00:23:58,159
the night camping in a nearby town of

562
00:24:02,470 --> 00:24:00,080
dolores

563
00:24:04,310 --> 00:24:02,480
quote we chose a secluded spot with an

564
00:24:07,029 --> 00:24:04,320
old fire ring and some broken beer

565
00:24:09,110 --> 00:24:07,039
bottles perfect for our camping needs

566
00:24:10,950 --> 00:24:09,120
mike called in his blog

567
00:24:13,510 --> 00:24:10,960
they pitched their tent crawled into

568
00:24:16,549 --> 00:24:13,520
their sleeping bags and soon drifted off

569
00:24:21,510 --> 00:24:19,110
it was the dead of night that mike was

570
00:24:23,669 --> 00:24:21,520
abruptly awakened by a harsh shriek

571
00:24:25,909 --> 00:24:23,679
coming from natasha

572
00:24:28,870 --> 00:24:25,919
quote my instantaneous response was to

573
00:24:31,110 --> 00:24:28,880
bolt upright and scream within intensity

574
00:24:33,510 --> 00:24:31,120
that would be hard to describe

575
00:24:37,350 --> 00:24:33,520
i was screaming in fear sure enough but

576
00:24:39,029 --> 00:24:37,360
it was also a primal outburst of defense

577
00:24:41,430 --> 00:24:39,039
end quote

578
00:24:43,430 --> 00:24:41,440
mike switched on the headlamp above him

579
00:24:44,630 --> 00:24:43,440
immediately asking natasha what had

580
00:24:47,269 --> 00:24:44,640
happened

581
00:24:49,110 --> 00:24:47,279
she couldn't respond frozen in an

582
00:24:51,269 --> 00:24:49,120
upright position

583
00:24:53,110 --> 00:24:51,279
tell me the first thing that comes to

584
00:24:54,070 --> 00:24:53,120
mind

585
00:24:56,230 --> 00:24:54,080
uh

586
00:24:57,990 --> 00:24:56,240
sorry i've lost my spot guys tell me the

587
00:25:00,070 --> 00:24:58,000
first thing that comes to your mind

588
00:25:02,310 --> 00:25:00,080
don't think just tell me what happened

589
00:25:05,510 --> 00:25:02,320
mike said to her she looked at him

590
00:25:07,269 --> 00:25:05,520
wide-eyed and answered with trepidation

591
00:25:09,909 --> 00:25:07,279
natasha told him

592
00:25:11,669 --> 00:25:09,919
i saw a face

593
00:25:13,590 --> 00:25:11,679
panic welding him

594
00:25:16,470 --> 00:25:13,600
what mike said next

595
00:25:19,029 --> 00:25:16,480
was completely unlike him look if we

596
00:25:21,510 --> 00:25:19,039
need to we can just leave right now we

597
00:25:24,390 --> 00:25:21,520
can leave the tent set up and just drive

598
00:25:26,789 --> 00:25:24,400
to town and get a hotel

599
00:25:28,470 --> 00:25:26,799
natasha looked at mike desperation

600
00:25:31,430 --> 00:25:28,480
following her words

601
00:25:34,549 --> 00:25:31,440
do you believe in evil ghosts she asked

602
00:25:36,230 --> 00:25:34,559
no mike responded more out of an urge to

603
00:25:38,630 --> 00:25:36,240
comfort sheer

604
00:25:40,630 --> 00:25:38,640
of comfort than sheer honesty

605
00:25:41,750 --> 00:25:40,640
he moved a bit closer putting an arm

606
00:25:43,669 --> 00:25:41,760
around her

607
00:25:45,909 --> 00:25:43,679
they lay in the tent they're breathing

608
00:25:48,470 --> 00:25:45,919
slowly returning to normal

609
00:25:50,870 --> 00:25:48,480
i ended up chanting a repetitive mantra

610
00:25:54,710 --> 00:25:50,880
in my head mike remembered love and

611
00:25:57,029 --> 00:25:54,720
light love and light love and light

612
00:25:59,590 --> 00:25:57,039
their close proximity to one another was

613
00:26:01,990 --> 00:25:59,600
all they had as they both finally fell

614
00:26:03,269 --> 00:26:02,000
asleep hoping that the night would soon

615
00:26:07,269 --> 00:26:03,279
be over

616
00:26:12,310 --> 00:26:09,830
late that same night i had a vivid dream

617
00:26:15,830 --> 00:26:12,320
mike explained it took place inside the

618
00:26:18,070 --> 00:26:15,840
same tent with no dreamlike distortion

619
00:26:19,909 --> 00:26:18,080
it was curiously void of any emotion

620
00:26:21,590 --> 00:26:19,919
good or bad

621
00:26:23,350 --> 00:26:21,600
what mike saw in the dream would leave

622
00:26:25,590 --> 00:26:23,360
him completely at odds with what was

623
00:26:28,630 --> 00:26:25,600
real and what wasn't

624
00:26:30,870 --> 00:26:28,640
quote i saw a big round mandala figure

625
00:26:33,110 --> 00:26:30,880
up to my left situated in a very

626
00:26:35,269 --> 00:26:33,120
specific point in the tent

627
00:26:37,830 --> 00:26:35,279
it was a simple circle about the size of

628
00:26:39,269 --> 00:26:37,840
a large pizza with a lone dot on its

629
00:26:41,669 --> 00:26:39,279
center

630
00:26:44,549 --> 00:26:41,679
as mike took stock of what he was seeing

631
00:26:47,669 --> 00:26:44,559
something strange began to happen

632
00:26:50,230 --> 00:26:47,679
quote i was floating up off the floor of

633
00:26:52,789 --> 00:26:50,240
the tent

634
00:26:55,669 --> 00:26:52,799
the elevator up sensation of slowly

635
00:26:58,310 --> 00:26:55,679
rising i thought to myself i need to

636
00:27:00,310 --> 00:26:58,320
remember this i need to remember this

637
00:27:02,630 --> 00:27:00,320
as the sensation of floating upward

638
00:27:05,269 --> 00:27:02,640
continued mike recalled something else

639
00:27:07,350 --> 00:27:05,279
rather vivid about the dream quote the

640
00:27:09,990 --> 00:27:07,360
environment of the tent changed to a

641
00:27:12,230 --> 00:27:10,000
backdrop of white light i thought

642
00:27:14,549 --> 00:27:12,240
am i on a table

643
00:27:17,350 --> 00:27:14,559
i didn't understand where i was

644
00:27:22,470 --> 00:27:17,360
it was mysterious some weird realm with

645
00:27:27,669 --> 00:27:25,029
the dream abruptly ended when mike heard

646
00:27:28,710 --> 00:27:27,679
natasha's voice she nonchalantly

647
00:27:29,750 --> 00:27:28,720
remarked

648
00:27:32,870 --> 00:27:29,760
mike

649
00:27:35,430 --> 00:27:32,880
you are floating

650
00:27:38,310 --> 00:27:35,440
though the words were clear whether he

651
00:27:40,230 --> 00:27:38,320
she had said this in reality or merely

652
00:27:42,950 --> 00:27:40,240
in the dream was another point of

653
00:27:45,269 --> 00:27:42,960
contention in mike's recollection

654
00:27:47,590 --> 00:27:45,279
no matter the case those words seem to

655
00:27:50,789 --> 00:27:47,600
pull mike back down to the ground both

656
00:27:52,870 --> 00:27:50,799
in the dream and in the tent

657
00:27:55,029 --> 00:27:52,880
upon waking up the next morning mike and

658
00:27:59,029 --> 00:27:55,039
natasha immediately began to try to make

659
00:28:03,110 --> 00:28:01,269
quote i saw a face within a circle

660
00:28:04,950 --> 00:28:03,120
natasha told mike

661
00:28:07,350 --> 00:28:04,960
the circle she went on to explain was

662
00:28:09,830 --> 00:28:07,360
strikingly similar to the mandala image

663
00:28:12,950 --> 00:28:09,840
mike had seen in the dream

664
00:28:15,269 --> 00:28:12,960
this was very curious mike commented she

665
00:28:17,830 --> 00:28:15,279
didn't know about my dream yet

666
00:28:19,669 --> 00:28:17,840
i asked where the face was positioned

667
00:28:22,950 --> 00:28:19,679
at the time i assumed it was directly

668
00:28:25,750 --> 00:28:22,960
over her centered above her face

669
00:28:27,750 --> 00:28:25,760
but natasha broke that assumption

670
00:28:28,789 --> 00:28:27,760
pointing up and off to her left in the

671
00:28:31,430 --> 00:28:28,799
tent

672
00:28:34,870 --> 00:28:31,440
it was exactly where i saw the glowing

673
00:28:36,230 --> 00:28:34,880
circle in my dream mike explained

674
00:28:38,549 --> 00:28:36,240
the two would spend the morning

675
00:28:41,750 --> 00:28:38,559
discussing the entire event trying to

676
00:28:46,710 --> 00:28:43,669
what might have actually happened is

677
00:28:48,630 --> 00:28:46,720
very difficult to say mike told me

678
00:28:51,110 --> 00:28:48,640
i cannot dismiss the immense fear that

679
00:28:53,590 --> 00:28:51,120
overcame both of us this feeling of

680
00:28:56,070 --> 00:28:53,600
terror was entirely different than any

681
00:28:57,510 --> 00:28:56,080
emotion i had ever experienced amplified

682
00:28:59,510 --> 00:28:57,520
in a way that seems

683
00:29:02,310 --> 00:28:59,520
extraordinary

684
00:29:04,630 --> 00:29:02,320
the nature of mike's dream vivid in ways

685
00:29:07,750 --> 00:29:04,640
he couldn't fully put into words was

686
00:29:10,630 --> 00:29:07,760
strikingly similar to natasha's reaction

687
00:29:15,110 --> 00:29:10,640
when she saw the face in the tent

688
00:29:19,510 --> 00:29:16,310
all right

689
00:29:22,070 --> 00:29:19,520
take a little water break here guys

690
00:29:28,789 --> 00:29:22,080
i hope you're enjoying this

691
00:29:32,470 --> 00:29:30,389
mark thanks so much for being here man

692
00:29:37,190 --> 00:29:32,480
thanks for the super sticker

693
00:29:44,230 --> 00:29:41,669
what do we got next all right

694
00:29:47,110 --> 00:29:44,240
all right here we go guys

695
00:29:49,510 --> 00:29:47,120
dinner's ready mike proclaimed oh us all

696
00:29:51,510 --> 00:29:49,520
we took our seats at the table

697
00:29:53,269 --> 00:29:51,520
the rest of the group joined us we

698
00:29:55,269 --> 00:29:53,279
opened a bottle of wine passed around

699
00:29:56,789 --> 00:29:55,279
various plates of food and drifted in

700
00:29:58,549 --> 00:29:56,799
and out of one another's various

701
00:30:00,710 --> 00:29:58,559
conversations

702
00:30:02,230 --> 00:30:00,720
i couldn't help but veer my attention

703
00:30:04,549 --> 00:30:02,240
toward rachel

704
00:30:07,110 --> 00:30:04,559
she'd been noticeably quiet the entire

705
00:30:09,590 --> 00:30:07,120
night and my curiosity got the best of

706
00:30:11,269 --> 00:30:09,600
me i impulsively interrupted the

707
00:30:13,750 --> 00:30:11,279
conversation

708
00:30:16,710 --> 00:30:13,760
rachel would you be comfortable sharing

709
00:30:19,430 --> 00:30:16,720
your experience with us i asked

710
00:30:21,350 --> 00:30:19,440
she sighed and finally spoke

711
00:30:24,789 --> 00:30:21,360
the first experience i can remember was

712
00:30:27,029 --> 00:30:24,799
when i was a child she said

713
00:30:30,870 --> 00:30:27,039
for the next half hour rachel opened up

714
00:30:33,110 --> 00:30:30,880
to us about her startling experiences

715
00:30:35,510 --> 00:30:33,120
while not being able to record or take

716
00:30:37,510 --> 00:30:35,520
notes in that moment i asked her to

717
00:30:39,909 --> 00:30:37,520
convey these experiences through email

718
00:30:44,630 --> 00:30:39,919
correspondence a few weeks later she

719
00:30:49,190 --> 00:30:46,950
like many young children rachel found

720
00:30:50,870 --> 00:30:49,200
herself afraid of the dark she would

721
00:30:51,909 --> 00:30:50,880
often sleep on the floor of her parents

722
00:30:53,510 --> 00:30:51,919
bedroom

723
00:30:55,750 --> 00:30:53,520
they didn't mind much knowing that she

724
00:30:57,350 --> 00:30:55,760
would outgrow the fear

725
00:30:59,669 --> 00:30:57,360
but it was in the wake of her first

726
00:31:02,710 --> 00:30:59,679
experience that that fear would not only

727
00:31:04,149 --> 00:31:02,720
remain but intensify

728
00:31:07,509 --> 00:31:04,159
it was in the middle of the night when

729
00:31:09,190 --> 00:31:07,519
she awoke her heart pounding she sensed

730
00:31:11,190 --> 00:31:09,200
something in the room

731
00:31:12,870 --> 00:31:11,200
she could faintly see something peeking

732
00:31:14,310 --> 00:31:12,880
out from the side of her father's

733
00:31:16,630 --> 00:31:14,320
dresser

734
00:31:20,070 --> 00:31:16,640
as she lay on the floor she could feel

735
00:31:24,070 --> 00:31:20,080
something lightly tugging at her legs

736
00:31:25,830 --> 00:31:24,080
frozen with terror she soon blacked out

737
00:31:28,149 --> 00:31:25,840
she awoke in the morning assuming it was

738
00:31:29,110 --> 00:31:28,159
all some horrible nightmare that would

739
00:31:32,389 --> 00:31:29,120
fade

740
00:31:37,110 --> 00:31:32,399
but whatever it was

741
00:31:40,230 --> 00:31:37,120
she saw and felt was making an extremely

742
00:31:47,430 --> 00:31:40,240
uncomfortable home within her dreams and

743
00:31:51,509 --> 00:31:49,509
rachel will tell us on another occasion

744
00:31:53,669 --> 00:31:51,519
while sleeping in the same room i had an

745
00:31:56,310 --> 00:31:53,679
episode of paralysis where i was

746
00:31:57,830 --> 00:31:56,320
struggling to get a grip on it

747
00:32:00,310 --> 00:31:57,840
i could sense something in the room

748
00:32:02,950 --> 00:32:00,320
again and try desperately to get my

749
00:32:04,950 --> 00:32:02,960
parents attention to no avail

750
00:32:07,669 --> 00:32:04,960
rachel awoke the next morning and

751
00:32:10,310 --> 00:32:07,679
confronted her father in a fit of anger

752
00:32:12,389 --> 00:32:10,320
wondering why he hadn't done anything if

753
00:32:14,710 --> 00:32:12,399
he'd heard her panicking from this

754
00:32:17,669 --> 00:32:14,720
apparent reoccurring nightmare

755
00:32:21,430 --> 00:32:17,679
he told her that he didn't do anything

756
00:32:24,789 --> 00:32:23,909
quote i was shocked she remembered

757
00:32:27,029 --> 00:32:24,799
feeling

758
00:32:28,389 --> 00:32:27,039
i couldn't believe he said that and i

759
00:32:29,909 --> 00:32:28,399
certainly couldn't even wrap my head

760
00:32:31,830 --> 00:32:29,919
around my father telling me he was

761
00:32:34,310 --> 00:32:31,840
afraid of anything let alone

762
00:32:37,909 --> 00:32:34,320
acknowledging that what was happening

763
00:32:43,269 --> 00:32:40,230
whatever that reality was it was deeply

764
00:32:45,029 --> 00:32:43,279
affecting rachel in ways she was yet to

765
00:32:46,789 --> 00:32:45,039
fully understand

766
00:32:49,190 --> 00:32:46,799
was this merely a spell of sleep

767
00:32:51,750 --> 00:32:49,200
paralysis night terrors

768
00:32:54,230 --> 00:32:51,760
she struggled with these notions

769
00:32:55,909 --> 00:32:54,240
at that point she says i think i was

770
00:32:58,549 --> 00:32:55,919
still trying to explain it away is

771
00:33:00,789 --> 00:32:58,559
dreams really bad dreams

772
00:33:01,990 --> 00:33:00,799
you try so hard to hold on to the idea

773
00:33:04,070 --> 00:33:02,000
of this and

774
00:33:06,230 --> 00:33:04,080
of it all not being real chalking it up

775
00:33:08,149 --> 00:33:06,240
to having some serious phobias thinking

776
00:33:10,950 --> 00:33:08,159
you're crazy is almost more comforting

777
00:33:15,350 --> 00:33:10,960
than believing there are aliens in a

778
00:33:20,470 --> 00:33:17,669
the thought that an unknown and possibly

779
00:33:22,549 --> 00:33:20,480
non-human intelligence was visiting her

780
00:33:24,630 --> 00:33:22,559
in the night was something she wrestled

781
00:33:26,630 --> 00:33:24,640
with on a daily basis

782
00:33:27,830 --> 00:33:26,640
would this be the night it would happen

783
00:33:32,070 --> 00:33:27,840
again

784
00:33:34,630 --> 00:33:32,080
intrusion

785
00:33:38,149 --> 00:33:34,640
unfortunately for rachel things only

786
00:33:42,789 --> 00:33:40,149
quote it was in my pre-teen years that i

787
00:33:45,110 --> 00:33:42,799
would wake up with twigs and leaves in

788
00:33:47,110 --> 00:33:45,120
my bed sheets she explained

789
00:33:48,710 --> 00:33:47,120
though she had no recollection of ever

790
00:33:50,950 --> 00:33:48,720
leaving or

791
00:33:52,549 --> 00:33:50,960
being outside

792
00:33:54,630 --> 00:33:52,559
quote my father once accused me of

793
00:33:56,470 --> 00:33:54,640
sneaking out at night i thought that it

794
00:33:59,029 --> 00:33:56,480
was completely ridiculous being that i

795
00:34:01,190 --> 00:33:59,039
couldn't even look out of the windows to

796
00:34:03,509 --> 00:34:01,200
see if it was dark at night

797
00:34:05,909 --> 00:34:03,519
it was in these years that the visits in

798
00:34:07,430 --> 00:34:05,919
both her parents room and her own seemed

799
00:34:09,030 --> 00:34:07,440
to be most frequent

800
00:34:11,349 --> 00:34:09,040
she would wake from the paralyzing

801
00:34:13,270 --> 00:34:11,359
feeling time and time again

802
00:34:15,669 --> 00:34:13,280
these bouts with what she believed to be

803
00:34:18,389 --> 00:34:15,679
sleep paralysis left her suffering

804
00:34:21,030 --> 00:34:18,399
extreme insomnia afraid that there was

805
00:34:22,230 --> 00:34:21,040
much more to the experiences than met

806
00:34:24,869 --> 00:34:22,240
the eye

807
00:34:27,190 --> 00:34:24,879
quote i would try to stay up all night

808
00:34:30,310 --> 00:34:27,200
reading and usually fall asleep when the

809
00:34:36,310 --> 00:34:30,320
sun came up honestly i don't know how i

810
00:34:40,790 --> 00:34:39,109
as time progressed rachel tirelessly

811
00:34:43,030 --> 00:34:40,800
fought with the mysterious presence that

812
00:34:45,589 --> 00:34:43,040
creeped in and out of her life

813
00:34:47,030 --> 00:34:45,599
she would try so hard to ignore it but

814
00:34:50,389 --> 00:34:47,040
it seemed to always thrive on the

815
00:34:52,869 --> 00:34:50,399
periphery almost begging to be seen

816
00:34:56,149 --> 00:34:52,879
one night she woke up to the tail end of

817
00:34:58,150 --> 00:34:56,159
a bright white light consuming the room

818
00:34:59,510 --> 00:34:58,160
she felt like she was floating above her

819
00:35:01,349 --> 00:34:59,520
own body

820
00:35:03,349 --> 00:35:01,359
the white light lingered for just a

821
00:35:04,870 --> 00:35:03,359
moment longer and then blinked out

822
00:35:07,270 --> 00:35:04,880
completely

823
00:35:09,510 --> 00:35:07,280
snippets of small figures would pass by

824
00:35:12,470 --> 00:35:09,520
her vision for years to come

825
00:35:17,589 --> 00:35:12,480
which turned the fear somewhat normal

826
00:35:22,790 --> 00:35:19,990
rachel was now 30 and living in the

827
00:35:24,870 --> 00:35:22,800
outskirts of new jersey it was a farming

828
00:35:27,349 --> 00:35:24,880
community she remembered with a lot of

829
00:35:29,109 --> 00:35:27,359
open space i lived on the side of an

830
00:35:31,670 --> 00:35:29,119
interstate which gives me completely

831
00:35:33,589 --> 00:35:31,680
false sense of security i hear the cars

832
00:35:36,310 --> 00:35:33,599
and trucks passing by at night and i'm

833
00:35:37,670 --> 00:35:36,320
comforted by the noise

834
00:35:39,670 --> 00:35:37,680
end quote

835
00:35:41,829 --> 00:35:39,680
although the ambient noise comforted her

836
00:35:44,390 --> 00:35:41,839
when she slept it didn't stop the

837
00:35:46,630 --> 00:35:44,400
experiences from occurring

838
00:35:48,790 --> 00:35:46,640
quote i have woken up to what i thought

839
00:35:53,829 --> 00:35:48,800
was a shoulder turning into the wall in

840
00:35:58,710 --> 00:35:56,710
rachel continued with another experience

841
00:36:01,990 --> 00:35:58,720
quote another time i woke up on the

842
00:36:04,550 --> 00:36:02,000
couch in a very dreamy sleepy like state

843
00:36:07,670 --> 00:36:04,560
with one of my cats being shoved into my

844
00:36:10,150 --> 00:36:07,680
face so i couldn't see around her

845
00:36:12,390 --> 00:36:10,160
what i saw was the very top of a

846
00:36:13,990 --> 00:36:12,400
hairless head that's it

847
00:36:19,030 --> 00:36:14,000
i can't remember if i was awake from

848
00:36:29,030 --> 00:36:20,630
these are so creepy

849
00:36:32,390 --> 00:36:30,470
if you're just joining us guys i'm

850
00:36:34,230 --> 00:36:32,400
reading from my book somewhere in the

851
00:36:35,990 --> 00:36:34,240
skies a human approach to the ufo

852
00:36:37,910 --> 00:36:36,000
phenomenon

853
00:36:40,390 --> 00:36:37,920
this is a chapter titled my weekend in

854
00:36:43,190 --> 00:36:40,400
the woods with the ufo abductees let's

855
00:36:45,109 --> 00:36:43,200
get back to rachel

856
00:36:46,630 --> 00:36:45,119
oh and also super chat and super

857
00:36:48,790 --> 00:36:46,640
stickers are open guys if you want to

858
00:36:50,790 --> 00:36:48,800
help out the show tonight all

859
00:36:53,430 --> 00:36:50,800
contributions go back to making the show

860
00:36:54,950 --> 00:36:53,440
bigger and better for you so we really

861
00:36:58,630 --> 00:36:54,960
do appreciate that here at somewhere in

862
00:37:02,790 --> 00:37:01,109
all right

863
00:37:04,870 --> 00:37:02,800
perhaps one of the most disturbing

864
00:37:06,950 --> 00:37:04,880
experiences that rachel recalled was

865
00:37:09,510 --> 00:37:06,960
when she was lying in bed one night and

866
00:37:11,990 --> 00:37:09,520
could sense something underneath her bed

867
00:37:14,230 --> 00:37:12,000
quote i could feel a pair of hands reach

868
00:37:17,510 --> 00:37:14,240
out from underneath me and then having

869
00:37:20,310 --> 00:37:17,520
the hands inside my body moving my

870
00:37:22,630 --> 00:37:20,320
organs around end quote

871
00:37:25,270 --> 00:37:22,640
when i asked rachel why she felt this

872
00:37:27,750 --> 00:37:25,280
was occurring she stated quote i believe

873
00:37:29,750 --> 00:37:27,760
they wanted to get something from me

874
00:37:32,390 --> 00:37:29,760
end quote

875
00:37:33,510 --> 00:37:32,400
what that was rachel was not entirely

876
00:37:35,510 --> 00:37:33,520
sure

877
00:37:37,430 --> 00:37:35,520
she also felt an extreme sense of fear

878
00:37:39,990 --> 00:37:37,440
before each experience

879
00:37:41,990 --> 00:37:40,000
quote it's like a wall of force that is

880
00:37:44,390 --> 00:37:42,000
pushing against you as you're pushing

881
00:37:46,790 --> 00:37:44,400
back to remain with it when all you want

882
00:37:48,550 --> 00:37:46,800
to do is just [\h__\h] rail against it

883
00:37:50,950 --> 00:37:48,560
and lose your [\h__\h]

884
00:37:52,870 --> 00:37:50,960
end quote

885
00:37:55,190 --> 00:37:52,880
whatever was happening to rachel it was

886
00:37:56,630 --> 00:37:55,200
clear that it was severely affecting her

887
00:37:58,550 --> 00:37:56,640
everyday life

888
00:38:00,390 --> 00:37:58,560
the constant feeling of something just

889
00:38:02,950 --> 00:38:00,400
around the corner or in the dark

890
00:38:05,910 --> 00:38:02,960
watching her its motives ominously

891
00:38:07,829 --> 00:38:05,920
unclear would make anyone feel at least

892
00:38:10,230 --> 00:38:07,839
a bit paranoid

893
00:38:12,790 --> 00:38:10,240
even worse was not knowing exactly what

894
00:38:15,589 --> 00:38:12,800
it was or what it wanted

895
00:38:17,990 --> 00:38:15,599
all she knew was that it was hiding in

896
00:38:20,870 --> 00:38:18,000
the night waiting for its moment to

897
00:38:23,430 --> 00:38:20,880
sneak into her dreams and possibly into

898
00:38:25,109 --> 00:38:23,440
her reality

899
00:38:26,710 --> 00:38:25,119
whatever this truly was

900
00:38:28,710 --> 00:38:26,720
one thing was clear

901
00:38:30,950 --> 00:38:28,720
rachel was scared

902
00:38:33,349 --> 00:38:30,960
and that fear was slowly eating away at

903
00:38:35,829 --> 00:38:33,359
her and as we sat at the table that

904
00:38:38,390 --> 00:38:35,839
night and listened to her tell her story

905
00:38:40,710 --> 00:38:38,400
tears began to run down her cheeks a

906
00:38:43,510 --> 00:38:40,720
slight tremble in her hand as her

907
00:38:45,990 --> 00:38:43,520
fingernails tap the tabletop

908
00:38:48,710 --> 00:38:46,000
i looked at mike whose gaze was so

909
00:38:51,670 --> 00:38:48,720
intent on rachel that it was clear he

910
00:38:54,150 --> 00:38:51,680
too had known these feelings of fear and

911
00:38:56,230 --> 00:38:54,160
helplessness before

912
00:39:06,230 --> 00:38:56,240
we all sat in silence with nods of

913
00:39:11,510 --> 00:39:09,670
esmeralda says this is so entertaining

914
00:39:17,910 --> 00:39:11,520
thank you trying

915
00:39:22,230 --> 00:39:20,310
the long day of traveling and the flood

916
00:39:24,150 --> 00:39:22,240
of stories being shared was taking its

917
00:39:26,069 --> 00:39:24,160
toll on my tired mind

918
00:39:27,750 --> 00:39:26,079
we moved to the living room drinking tea

919
00:39:30,870 --> 00:39:27,760
around the fireplace making lighter

920
00:39:32,630 --> 00:39:30,880
conversation to cap the night off

921
00:39:38,069 --> 00:39:32,640
jane and i found ourselves saying good

922
00:39:43,510 --> 00:39:40,870
i awoke to the sound of tapping

923
00:39:45,589 --> 00:39:43,520
it almost sounded identical to that of

924
00:39:46,870 --> 00:39:45,599
rachel's fingernails on the dining room

925
00:39:49,190 --> 00:39:46,880
table

926
00:39:53,109 --> 00:39:49,200
but this was behind me

927
00:39:57,190 --> 00:39:55,270
this was the room that jane and i stayed

928
00:39:59,510 --> 00:39:57,200
in guys

929
00:40:01,750 --> 00:39:59,520
so you'll see that window those two

930
00:40:03,670 --> 00:40:01,760
windows actually in the corner there um

931
00:40:05,510 --> 00:40:03,680
the larger bed that's where we were

932
00:40:07,349 --> 00:40:05,520
sleeping in this room

933
00:40:11,270 --> 00:40:07,359
in the cabin

934
00:40:11,990 --> 00:40:11,280
bed and breakfast and in the doctor's

935
00:40:12,950 --> 00:40:12,000
inn

936
00:40:15,109 --> 00:40:12,960
um

937
00:40:17,829 --> 00:40:15,119
so at night those all of those curtains

938
00:40:19,670 --> 00:40:17,839
were drawn completely shut

939
00:40:24,550 --> 00:40:19,680
just so you know

940
00:40:30,150 --> 00:40:25,990
on the window

941
00:40:32,790 --> 00:40:30,160
room we were on the second floor of the

942
00:40:34,390 --> 00:40:32,800
house though what could possibly be

943
00:40:37,109 --> 00:40:34,400
tapping

944
00:40:40,150 --> 00:40:37,119
a tree branch a heavy snowfall

945
00:40:42,870 --> 00:40:40,160
whatever it was it awoke me abruptly

946
00:40:44,630 --> 00:40:42,880
i glanced over a jane who was usually a

947
00:40:46,550 --> 00:40:44,640
light sleeper

948
00:40:48,630 --> 00:40:46,560
but in this moment

949
00:40:49,750 --> 00:40:48,640
of sheer panic that i couldn't fully

950
00:40:52,470 --> 00:40:49,760
describe

951
00:40:54,230 --> 00:40:52,480
i watched her sleep deeper than i'd ever

952
00:40:56,710 --> 00:40:54,240
seen before

953
00:40:59,030 --> 00:40:56,720
my eyes shot to the window

954
00:41:01,750 --> 00:40:59,040
and as i tried to sit up something

955
00:41:04,470 --> 00:41:01,760
stopped me from looking out the window

956
00:41:06,710 --> 00:41:04,480
i felt paralyzed with fear

957
00:41:07,910 --> 00:41:06,720
my eyes moved to the closed door of the

958
00:41:10,309 --> 00:41:07,920
bedroom

959
00:41:12,470 --> 00:41:10,319
a shadow moved past the faint light that

960
00:41:16,309 --> 00:41:12,480
poured in from underneath

961
00:41:19,109 --> 00:41:16,319
something was definitely behind the door

962
00:41:20,790 --> 00:41:19,119
jane i inquired in a whimper

963
00:41:22,710 --> 00:41:20,800
no answer

964
00:41:24,790 --> 00:41:22,720
i looked under the door again

965
00:41:26,230 --> 00:41:24,800
the light remained but no bouncing

966
00:41:28,550 --> 00:41:26,240
shadows

967
00:41:29,990 --> 00:41:28,560
the tapping creeped in again on the

968
00:41:32,390 --> 00:41:30,000
window

969
00:41:35,430 --> 00:41:32,400
i had listened to the stories from mike

970
00:41:37,270 --> 00:41:35,440
rachel and so many others yet i'd always

971
00:41:38,710 --> 00:41:37,280
shied away from the possibility that

972
00:41:43,430 --> 00:41:38,720
anything like what it they had

973
00:41:45,910 --> 00:41:43,440
experienced could happen to jain in me

974
00:41:48,790 --> 00:41:45,920
but as i sat straight up in that bed

975
00:41:51,430 --> 00:41:48,800
staring into the darkness my mind began

976
00:41:52,870 --> 00:41:51,440
to swirl with what could be outside that

977
00:41:56,069 --> 00:41:52,880
window

978
00:41:59,430 --> 00:41:56,079
i could feel sweat dripping from my brow

979
00:42:01,190 --> 00:41:59,440
i felt alone in the universe everything

980
00:42:04,309 --> 00:42:01,200
closing in on me

981
00:42:09,589 --> 00:42:04,319
whatever was outside that window i knew

982
00:42:09,599 --> 00:42:18,460
water break

983
00:42:18,470 --> 00:42:21,670
[Music]

984
00:42:32,390 --> 00:42:24,069
how is this guys do you like this

985
00:42:36,710 --> 00:42:34,950
finally i gathered a shred of courage

986
00:42:38,790 --> 00:42:36,720
battling with the possibility that by

987
00:42:41,430 --> 00:42:38,800
pulling the curtain aside and looking

988
00:42:44,069 --> 00:42:41,440
beyond the glass i might stare into the

989
00:42:45,430 --> 00:42:44,079
eyes of something i didn't want to

990
00:42:47,190 --> 00:42:45,440
accept

991
00:42:50,309 --> 00:42:47,200
perhaps it would be

992
00:42:52,550 --> 00:42:50,319
an extension of a dome-shaped craft or a

993
00:42:54,710 --> 00:42:52,560
triangular formation

994
00:42:57,510 --> 00:42:54,720
perhaps a swirling ball of energy or

995
00:43:00,790 --> 00:42:57,520
worse it could be the fingertips of a

996
00:43:03,589 --> 00:43:00,800
being or a pale grey of some sort it's

997
00:43:07,190 --> 00:43:03,599
black eyes staring back at me

998
00:43:10,230 --> 00:43:07,200
whatever it was i wanted to know

999
00:43:13,030 --> 00:43:10,240
i needed to know for my own sake and

1000
00:43:15,190 --> 00:43:13,040
perhaps even my own sanity

1001
00:43:18,550 --> 00:43:15,200
it was in that moment that a small part

1002
00:43:21,190 --> 00:43:18,560
of me felt a deep connection to rachel

1003
00:43:23,270 --> 00:43:21,200
that fear of the unknown

1004
00:43:27,109 --> 00:43:23,280
whatever lurked in the shadows didn't

1005
00:43:29,670 --> 00:43:27,119
care what i felt or how i'd react

1006
00:43:31,589 --> 00:43:29,680
it would just happen and i'd have no

1007
00:43:34,069 --> 00:43:31,599
control over it

1008
00:43:36,950 --> 00:43:34,079
my sweaty palm moved toward the curtain

1009
00:43:41,750 --> 00:43:36,960
and slowly pulled it aside

1010
00:43:44,950 --> 00:43:41,760
i peered hesitantly through the window

1011
00:43:50,870 --> 00:43:48,069
a sense of relief flooded over me

1012
00:43:53,109 --> 00:43:50,880
i let out an audible sigh which woke

1013
00:43:55,510 --> 00:43:53,119
jane up finally

1014
00:43:58,470 --> 00:43:55,520
she turned toward me and whispered

1015
00:44:00,870 --> 00:43:58,480
is everything okay

1016
00:44:04,309 --> 00:44:00,880
i didn't know how to answer

1017
00:44:05,910 --> 00:44:04,319
i let the curtain fall and sat silent

1018
00:44:09,510 --> 00:44:05,920
was i okay

1019
00:44:11,990 --> 00:44:09,520
was this all a figment of my imagination

1020
00:44:14,630 --> 00:44:12,000
all i knew was that i never felt such

1021
00:44:17,109 --> 00:44:14,640
intense fear in my life

1022
00:44:19,349 --> 00:44:17,119
i simply nodded to jane rolled on my

1023
00:44:22,390 --> 00:44:19,359
side away from the window and stared at

1024
00:44:25,270 --> 00:44:22,400
her as she fell back asleep

1025
00:44:27,670 --> 00:44:25,280
i longed for that state and tried with

1026
00:44:30,069 --> 00:44:27,680
all my might to fall asleep awaiting the

1027
00:44:31,589 --> 00:44:30,079
bright morning ahead more than ever

1028
00:44:34,230 --> 00:44:31,599
before

1029
00:44:42,710 --> 00:44:34,240
it was around 3 am that i finally

1030
00:44:46,390 --> 00:44:45,349
we awoke the next morning to a fantastic

1031
00:44:48,550 --> 00:44:46,400
breakfast

1032
00:44:50,870 --> 00:44:48,560
as i sipped my morning coffee i saw

1033
00:44:53,589 --> 00:44:50,880
spazzy peeking out from beyond a plotted

1034
00:44:55,430 --> 00:44:53,599
uh beyond a potted plant

1035
00:44:57,670 --> 00:44:55,440
her eyes were as deep as the night

1036
00:45:00,550 --> 00:44:57,680
before though she looked at me with

1037
00:45:03,030 --> 00:45:00,560
comfort she clearly had warmed up to us

1038
00:45:05,349 --> 00:45:03,040
as guests and my severe allergies to

1039
00:45:06,630 --> 00:45:05,359
cats seemed to stay at bay for the time

1040
00:45:08,950 --> 00:45:06,640
being

1041
00:45:12,069 --> 00:45:08,960
a pair of keys suddenly hit the table

1042
00:45:13,829 --> 00:45:12,079
next to me mike made good on his promise

1043
00:45:15,109 --> 00:45:13,839
letting us borrow his car for the

1044
00:45:18,230 --> 00:45:15,119
afternoon

1045
00:45:21,750 --> 00:45:18,240
he suggested we head to lake placid once

1046
00:45:24,309 --> 00:45:21,760
home to the 1980 winter olympics

1047
00:45:26,630 --> 00:45:24,319
i graciously accepted the offer wanting

1048
00:45:29,190 --> 00:45:26,640
to shake whatever had happened in the

1049
00:45:31,430 --> 00:45:29,200
bedroom the night before with some local

1050
00:45:33,510 --> 00:45:31,440
sightseeing

1051
00:45:35,750 --> 00:45:33,520
jane and i arrived at lake placid to an

1052
00:45:39,270 --> 00:45:35,760
array of local shops boasting hot

1053
00:45:41,030 --> 00:45:39,280
chocolate maple fudge and cider donuts

1054
00:45:43,750 --> 00:45:41,040
we absorbed the beautiful landscape

1055
00:45:46,550 --> 00:45:43,760
around us as young children skated and

1056
00:45:49,030 --> 00:45:46,560
played hockey on the frozen water

1057
00:45:51,670 --> 00:45:49,040
jane spotted a truck that had that held

1058
00:45:53,829 --> 00:45:51,680
several snow dogs in its bed

1059
00:45:54,710 --> 00:45:53,839
i watched her beam as she tried to pet

1060
00:45:57,510 --> 00:45:54,720
them

1061
00:45:59,109 --> 00:45:57,520
i felt a warmth from her excitement both

1062
00:46:00,870 --> 00:45:59,119
something deep down in the pit of my

1063
00:46:05,750 --> 00:46:00,880
stomach wouldn't let the fear of the

1064
00:46:10,710 --> 00:46:07,829
i kept getting flashes of something

1065
00:46:13,190 --> 00:46:10,720
outside the window and the shadows

1066
00:46:14,950 --> 00:46:13,200
moving under the door

1067
00:46:19,430 --> 00:46:14,960
we headed toward the lake as i pushed

1068
00:46:23,750 --> 00:46:21,270
we found ourselves walking straight

1069
00:46:26,470 --> 00:46:23,760
under the water a flurry of soft snow

1070
00:46:28,309 --> 00:46:26,480
brushing past us in every direction

1071
00:46:30,710 --> 00:46:28,319
it brought me back to the many winters

1072
00:46:33,750 --> 00:46:30,720
growing up in syracuse new york where

1073
00:46:35,750 --> 00:46:33,760
snowfall would often reach my chest

1074
00:46:38,069 --> 00:46:35,760
it also brought back memories of more

1075
00:46:40,150 --> 00:46:38,079
innocent times in my life as i caught

1076
00:46:42,950 --> 00:46:40,160
sight of the children sliding across the

1077
00:46:43,990 --> 00:46:42,960
ice with their used and tattered hockey

1078
00:46:46,470 --> 00:46:44,000
sticks

1079
00:46:49,030 --> 00:46:46,480
i felt a huge sense of gratitude and

1080
00:46:51,109 --> 00:46:49,040
fortune for friends like mike andrea

1081
00:46:52,950 --> 00:46:51,119
rachel and lee

1082
00:46:55,430 --> 00:46:52,960
not only had mike and andrea given us

1083
00:46:58,470 --> 00:46:55,440
the car for the day but they had invited

1084
00:47:00,950 --> 00:46:58,480
us into their home to hear their stories

1085
00:47:03,430 --> 00:47:00,960
it was in that moment when the darkness

1086
00:47:05,190 --> 00:47:03,440
of the night before began to dissipate

1087
00:47:07,349 --> 00:47:05,200
once and for all

1088
00:47:10,309 --> 00:47:07,359
as i watched jane climb a large mountain

1089
00:47:13,349 --> 00:47:10,319
of snow that collected on the ice i felt

1090
00:47:15,510 --> 00:47:13,359
a calming sensation rush over me

1091
00:47:18,390 --> 00:47:15,520
and that's when i realized that whatever

1092
00:47:25,030 --> 00:47:18,400
was outside the window that night

1093
00:47:29,109 --> 00:47:27,190
day slowly turned to night as we headed

1094
00:47:30,630 --> 00:47:29,119
back to the doctor's inn for dinner with

1095
00:47:33,109 --> 00:47:30,640
a special guest

1096
00:47:34,710 --> 00:47:33,119
tom a close friend of mike and andrea

1097
00:47:37,270 --> 00:47:34,720
joined our group

1098
00:47:39,109 --> 00:47:37,280
tom as we learned was from a nearby area

1099
00:47:41,109 --> 00:47:39,119
known as tupper lake

1100
00:47:44,309 --> 00:47:41,119
there was also something rather unique

1101
00:47:46,710 --> 00:47:44,319
about him he was a practicing shaman

1102
00:47:49,589 --> 00:47:46,720
having never met a shaman in person

1103
00:47:53,270 --> 00:47:49,599
i wasn't exactly sure what to expect but

1104
00:47:55,030 --> 00:47:53,280
i can honestly say that tom wasn't it

1105
00:47:57,670 --> 00:47:55,040
he had the grizzled yet well-groomed

1106
00:47:59,829 --> 00:47:57,680
look of a professional woodsman topped

1107
00:48:02,150 --> 00:47:59,839
off with a healthy white beard and

1108
00:48:03,910 --> 00:48:02,160
tattoos wrapped intricately around his

1109
00:48:06,309 --> 00:48:03,920
forearms

1110
00:48:08,870 --> 00:48:06,319
he reminded me more of a biker than a

1111
00:48:10,870 --> 00:48:08,880
spiritual practitioner who used altered

1112
00:48:13,109 --> 00:48:10,880
states of consciousness to interact with

1113
00:48:15,349 --> 00:48:13,119
the spirit world but the weekend had

1114
00:48:21,190 --> 00:48:15,359
surely opened my mind already and i

1115
00:48:21,200 --> 00:48:24,790
oh thanks guys

1116
00:48:24,800 --> 00:48:30,230
appreciate the very kind words

1117
00:48:34,710 --> 00:48:31,910
just as with the night prior

1118
00:48:36,630 --> 00:48:34,720
conversations ran the gamut as lee jane

1119
00:48:38,710 --> 00:48:36,640
and i listened intently to tom explain

1120
00:48:41,270 --> 00:48:38,720
his work as a shaman i could see a

1121
00:48:43,990 --> 00:48:41,280
troubled look on rachel's face she

1122
00:48:46,150 --> 00:48:44,000
appeared tired when prompted she

1123
00:48:47,750 --> 00:48:46,160
admitted to us that she had a really

1124
00:48:48,630 --> 00:48:47,760
tough time falling asleep the night

1125
00:48:50,390 --> 00:48:48,640
before

1126
00:48:52,950 --> 00:48:50,400
sensing that the beings were still

1127
00:48:54,230 --> 00:48:52,960
visiting her even on this weekend

1128
00:48:56,710 --> 00:48:54,240
retreat

1129
00:48:59,670 --> 00:48:56,720
that is when she asked tom something i'd

1130
00:49:02,150 --> 00:48:59,680
heard many other experiencers ask

1131
00:49:05,750 --> 00:49:02,160
how do i stop these experiences from

1132
00:49:16,630 --> 00:49:07,270
and we'll get his answer in just a

1133
00:49:21,190 --> 00:49:18,950
i felt it inappropriate to record tom's

1134
00:49:23,190 --> 00:49:21,200
answers that night

1135
00:49:25,349 --> 00:49:23,200
rachel's emotional and vulnerable state

1136
00:49:28,470 --> 00:49:25,359
was palpable it was clear that this

1137
00:49:30,950 --> 00:49:28,480
moment was for her and her alone but i

1138
00:49:33,270 --> 00:49:30,960
contacted tom several weeks later to ask

1139
00:49:35,270 --> 00:49:33,280
him what he recalled from that night and

1140
00:49:39,109 --> 00:49:35,280
to again relate the vital information he

1141
00:49:43,670 --> 00:49:41,349
i asked tom about what he believed was

1142
00:49:46,150 --> 00:49:43,680
happening to rachel according to her

1143
00:49:47,910 --> 00:49:46,160
descriptions of the beings she witnessed

1144
00:49:49,750 --> 00:49:47,920
and the fearful experiences she

1145
00:49:52,470 --> 00:49:49,760
continued to endure

1146
00:49:55,430 --> 00:49:52,480
he stated the following on the beings

1147
00:49:58,150 --> 00:49:55,440
quote in my opinion the aliens are

1148
00:50:00,309 --> 00:49:58,160
entities from other worlds sharing the

1149
00:50:02,790 --> 00:50:00,319
shamanic worlds with us

1150
00:50:04,630 --> 00:50:02,800
i think the shamanic worlds are possibly

1151
00:50:06,950 --> 00:50:04,640
community property

1152
00:50:09,109 --> 00:50:06,960
accessed by several different physically

1153
00:50:11,270 --> 00:50:09,119
manifested energies

1154
00:50:13,990 --> 00:50:11,280
it's not uncommon to encounter other

1155
00:50:17,270 --> 00:50:14,000
life forms in the shamanic worlds it's a

1156
00:50:19,750 --> 00:50:17,280
richly inhabited environment so crossing

1157
00:50:23,109 --> 00:50:19,760
paths with quote aliens has a high

1158
00:50:26,950 --> 00:50:24,470
thanks so much metal hendricks

1159
00:50:29,109 --> 00:50:26,960
appreciate the super chat

1160
00:50:30,950 --> 00:50:29,119
do these pictures

1161
00:50:31,990 --> 00:50:30,960
and these stories to another take this

1162
00:50:33,910 --> 00:50:32,000
to another

1163
00:50:37,349 --> 00:50:33,920
level i'm hooked i'm glad to experience

1164
00:50:41,030 --> 00:50:37,359
this live great job thank you

1165
00:50:42,950 --> 00:50:41,040
really really appreciate that

1166
00:50:45,030 --> 00:50:42,960
but what did tom believe was the true

1167
00:50:47,270 --> 00:50:45,040
nature of these specific beings that

1168
00:50:49,990 --> 00:50:47,280
rachel briefly encountered what about

1169
00:50:51,589 --> 00:50:50,000
their presence scared her so much

1170
00:50:54,309 --> 00:50:51,599
tom would tell me quote

1171
00:50:57,750 --> 00:50:54,319
all of us have guides around us working

1172
00:50:59,829 --> 00:50:57,760
for our good and observing our lives

1173
00:51:02,150 --> 00:50:59,839
the guides interact with people open to

1174
00:51:05,030 --> 00:51:02,160
seeing them but they also interact with

1175
00:51:07,990 --> 00:51:05,040
people only partially open to them

1176
00:51:10,630 --> 00:51:08,000
this makes for interesting interactions

1177
00:51:13,589 --> 00:51:10,640
if a guy gets insistent with guidance if

1178
00:51:16,150 --> 00:51:13,599
it refuses to not be seen and continues

1179
00:51:18,150 --> 00:51:16,160
to be a presence impossible to ignore

1180
00:51:21,030 --> 00:51:18,160
the consciousness will frame it in

1181
00:51:23,270 --> 00:51:21,040
something familiar when expressing it

1182
00:51:25,670 --> 00:51:23,280
if we are fearful at the time then the

1183
00:51:27,750 --> 00:51:25,680
expression will probably be fearful in

1184
00:51:30,150 --> 00:51:27,760
its interpretation

1185
00:51:32,069 --> 00:51:30,160
i feel rachel's guides are trying to get

1186
00:51:33,030 --> 00:51:32,079
her attention over something important

1187
00:51:34,710 --> 00:51:33,040
to her

1188
00:51:38,390 --> 00:51:34,720
and they keep coming back because they

1189
00:51:40,470 --> 00:51:38,400
have failed to deliver that message

1190
00:51:43,109 --> 00:51:40,480
end quote

1191
00:51:45,270 --> 00:51:43,119
what this message was rachel was not

1192
00:51:46,470 --> 00:51:45,280
quite sure as it never seemed to come

1193
00:51:49,109 --> 00:51:46,480
through in a way that she could

1194
00:51:51,430 --> 00:51:49,119
comprehend or accept

1195
00:51:53,589 --> 00:51:51,440
was it as tom had mentioned clouded by

1196
00:51:55,109 --> 00:51:53,599
the immense fear the experiences often

1197
00:51:57,510 --> 00:51:55,119
harbored

1198
00:52:00,150 --> 00:51:57,520
tom explained why this is so often the

1199
00:52:03,190 --> 00:52:00,160
case with many who have had experiences

1200
00:52:08,870 --> 00:52:05,910
quote my thoughts on abductions is that

1201
00:52:11,349 --> 00:52:08,880
some not all but certainly some are

1202
00:52:13,349 --> 00:52:11,359
people slipping into shamanic journeys

1203
00:52:14,470 --> 00:52:13,359
without training unaware they are

1204
00:52:16,150 --> 00:52:14,480
journeying

1205
00:52:18,390 --> 00:52:16,160
they find themselves in a place

1206
00:52:20,309 --> 00:52:18,400
unfamiliar and the consciousness of the

1207
00:52:22,710 --> 00:52:20,319
individual tries to frame the new

1208
00:52:24,230 --> 00:52:22,720
experience into familiar forms such as

1209
00:52:25,829 --> 00:52:24,240
nightmares or

1210
00:52:27,670 --> 00:52:25,839
abductions

1211
00:52:30,710 --> 00:52:27,680
walking shamanic worlds without any

1212
00:52:33,270 --> 00:52:30,720
training can be daunting and scary

1213
00:52:35,589 --> 00:52:33,280
fear does strange things to us and we

1214
00:52:39,349 --> 00:52:35,599
often respond with fear when things are

1215
00:52:46,309 --> 00:52:41,829
that's not unknown that's an ambulance

1216
00:52:51,190 --> 00:52:48,390
the entities one sees in the shamanic

1217
00:52:53,829 --> 00:52:51,200
worlds are rarely in human form

1218
00:52:56,549 --> 00:52:53,839
what one runs across is often bizarre or

1219
00:52:58,870 --> 00:52:56,559
strange looking to us rather than find

1220
00:52:59,670 --> 00:52:58,880
out what the entity wants or

1221
00:53:01,430 --> 00:52:59,680
is

1222
00:53:05,349 --> 00:53:01,440
we draw away in a wake with a

1223
00:53:07,670 --> 00:53:05,359
fear-filled experience of an alien

1224
00:53:09,829 --> 00:53:07,680
and while tom's observations may or may

1225
00:53:11,990 --> 00:53:09,839
not have shed some glimmering light on

1226
00:53:14,630 --> 00:53:12,000
what rachel had been dealing with it

1227
00:53:17,030 --> 00:53:14,640
didn't fully put her at ease it only

1228
00:53:19,910 --> 00:53:17,040
opened the door to more questions

1229
00:53:22,950 --> 00:53:19,920
how does one keep a level head and begin

1230
00:53:25,030 --> 00:53:22,960
to alleviate this constant fear

1231
00:53:26,390 --> 00:53:25,040
tom's response to this question struck

1232
00:53:28,230 --> 00:53:26,400
me most

1233
00:53:30,470 --> 00:53:28,240
and by the look on rachel's face that

1234
00:53:34,470 --> 00:53:30,480
night it seemed like it had reached her

1235
00:53:38,790 --> 00:53:36,309
tom would say

1236
00:53:40,790 --> 00:53:38,800
all experiences are different and all

1237
00:53:42,710 --> 00:53:40,800
solutions are different

1238
00:53:45,510 --> 00:53:42,720
some people come ready to let go of the

1239
00:53:47,190 --> 00:53:45,520
event while others have it so immersed

1240
00:53:49,750 --> 00:53:47,200
in their being that it becomes a part of

1241
00:53:52,710 --> 00:53:49,760
their identity a feeling that by letting

1242
00:53:54,710 --> 00:53:52,720
it go they will lose themselves

1243
00:53:57,829 --> 00:53:54,720
every instance will have emotions

1244
00:53:59,750 --> 00:53:57,839
attached to it raw and fresh easily

1245
00:54:01,190 --> 00:53:59,760
feeling like it will overpower the

1246
00:54:03,349 --> 00:54:01,200
individual

1247
00:54:06,470 --> 00:54:03,359
we think we have a finite ability to

1248
00:54:08,630 --> 00:54:06,480
embrace emotions but the reality is that

1249
00:54:11,750 --> 00:54:08,640
we have the ability to embrace emotions

1250
00:54:14,069 --> 00:54:11,760
far deeper than we usually do

1251
00:54:17,030 --> 00:54:14,079
fear holds us back

1252
00:54:19,030 --> 00:54:17,040
in that feeling lies our humanity and

1253
00:54:21,349 --> 00:54:19,040
our reason to be here

1254
00:54:24,630 --> 00:54:21,359
these experiences are opportunities for

1255
00:54:28,069 --> 00:54:24,640
ex for each of us to move into a new way

1256
00:54:30,549 --> 00:54:28,079
of being one with little or no fear and

1257
00:54:33,510 --> 00:54:30,559
with a level of emotional depth few can

1258
00:54:41,349 --> 00:54:33,520
imagine for themselves it's a place of

1259
00:54:45,430 --> 00:54:43,670
esmeralda says okay now i am a fan and

1260
00:54:48,630 --> 00:54:45,440
must get the book thank you i hope

1261
00:54:52,950 --> 00:54:48,640
you'll check it out esmeralda

1262
00:54:55,510 --> 00:54:52,960
plenty more stories like this

1263
00:54:57,270 --> 00:54:55,520
alright back to reading

1264
00:54:59,670 --> 00:54:57,280
there was a distinct moment when i could

1265
00:55:02,230 --> 00:54:59,680
visibly see a rush of relief overtake

1266
00:55:03,430 --> 00:55:02,240
rachel as she sighed and wiped tears

1267
00:55:04,950 --> 00:55:03,440
away

1268
00:55:07,349 --> 00:55:04,960
the thought that she could potentially

1269
00:55:08,549 --> 00:55:07,359
have control over these experiences gave

1270
00:55:11,030 --> 00:55:08,559
her hope

1271
00:55:12,870 --> 00:55:11,040
it would be condescending to suggest

1272
00:55:15,589 --> 00:55:12,880
that she hadn't sought different ways to

1273
00:55:17,910 --> 00:55:15,599
try to deal with her experiences

1274
00:55:20,549 --> 00:55:17,920
but tom's words only solidified her

1275
00:55:23,270 --> 00:55:20,559
progression in knowing that not only was

1276
00:55:25,270 --> 00:55:23,280
she not alone but she could focus on the

1277
00:55:27,510 --> 00:55:25,280
positives in her life rather than

1278
00:55:29,589 --> 00:55:27,520
dwelling on the fear that these beings

1279
00:55:31,750 --> 00:55:29,599
would return

1280
00:55:33,910 --> 00:55:31,760
she would tell me quote i will continue

1281
00:55:36,789 --> 00:55:33,920
to try to focus on me and my soul's

1282
00:55:39,270 --> 00:55:36,799
journey maybe over time i'll have more

1283
00:55:42,069 --> 00:55:39,280
insight into this and the reason but

1284
00:55:43,670 --> 00:55:42,079
really i'd be happy if they just left me

1285
00:55:45,589 --> 00:55:43,680
alone

1286
00:55:47,990 --> 00:55:45,599
i hope to fill my life with happiness

1287
00:55:49,990 --> 00:55:48,000
and surround myself with positive people

1288
00:55:52,470 --> 00:55:50,000
on a level that these fear-inducing

1289
00:55:58,069 --> 00:55:52,480
beings can't touch

1290
00:56:02,549 --> 00:56:00,230
as our final and most emotional dinner

1291
00:56:04,950 --> 00:56:02,559
concluded that night i found myself

1292
00:56:06,309 --> 00:56:04,960
battling with my heavy eyelids hesitant

1293
00:56:07,990 --> 00:56:06,319
to go to sleep

1294
00:56:10,309 --> 00:56:08,000
whatever had happened the night before

1295
00:56:11,270 --> 00:56:10,319
had clearly affected me on a visceral

1296
00:56:12,950 --> 00:56:11,280
level

1297
00:56:15,270 --> 00:56:12,960
the very thought of encountering

1298
00:56:17,910 --> 00:56:15,280
something similar to what rachel mike or

1299
00:56:20,549 --> 00:56:17,920
so many others had seen was almost too

1300
00:56:22,710 --> 00:56:20,559
terrifying to consider

1301
00:56:25,030 --> 00:56:22,720
reluctantly i wished everyone a good

1302
00:56:27,510 --> 00:56:25,040
night and headed upstairs to bed

1303
00:56:30,470 --> 00:56:27,520
jane who had retired early was already

1304
00:56:33,030 --> 00:56:30,480
fast asleep as i crawled into bed the

1305
00:56:36,309 --> 00:56:33,040
window suddenly caught my eye and my

1306
00:56:38,470 --> 00:56:36,319
heart began to pound

1307
00:56:39,990 --> 00:56:38,480
as i lay there i began to think about

1308
00:56:41,990 --> 00:56:40,000
tom's message

1309
00:56:43,190 --> 00:56:42,000
no matter what was behind the glass of

1310
00:56:45,910 --> 00:56:43,200
that window

1311
00:56:48,390 --> 00:56:45,920
i had complete control over what it was

1312
00:56:50,789 --> 00:56:48,400
and what it made me feel

1313
00:56:53,670 --> 00:56:50,799
if it wanted to give me a message it was

1314
00:56:56,710 --> 00:56:53,680
up to me to let that happen

1315
00:56:59,270 --> 00:56:56,720
i opened the curtain wide and stared out

1316
00:57:00,710 --> 00:56:59,280
the faint sound of wind and snow hitting

1317
00:57:04,470 --> 00:57:00,720
the glass

1318
00:57:07,670 --> 00:57:04,480
i stared and stared and stared

1319
00:57:10,150 --> 00:57:07,680
nothing seemed to be happening

1320
00:57:11,829 --> 00:57:10,160
i turned in bed to face jane watching

1321
00:57:13,190 --> 00:57:11,839
the moonlight hit her in the most

1322
00:57:16,309 --> 00:57:13,200
brilliant way

1323
00:57:17,829 --> 00:57:16,319
she slept peacefully a faint smile on

1324
00:57:19,510 --> 00:57:17,839
her face

1325
00:57:21,670 --> 00:57:19,520
an immediate rush of comfort and

1326
00:57:24,069 --> 00:57:21,680
happiness consumed me

1327
00:57:25,589 --> 00:57:24,079
and no matter what was or wasn't out

1328
00:57:27,270 --> 00:57:25,599
there in the dark

1329
00:57:29,349 --> 00:57:27,280
it couldn't compete with the light i

1330
00:57:31,829 --> 00:57:29,359
felt in that moment

1331
00:57:34,309 --> 00:57:31,839
i had controlled the fear and i knew

1332
00:57:35,910 --> 00:57:34,319
that deep down rachel was beginning to

1333
00:57:38,789 --> 00:57:35,920
do the same

1334
00:57:40,470 --> 00:57:38,799
that night i slept more soundly than i

1335
00:57:46,470 --> 00:57:40,480
had in a very

1336
00:57:50,950 --> 00:57:49,030
we said goodbye to lee and rachel early

1337
00:57:53,670 --> 00:57:50,960
the next morning as they made the long

1338
00:57:55,670 --> 00:57:53,680
trek back to new jersey lee would be

1339
00:57:57,270 --> 00:57:55,680
spending a few days in new york city so

1340
00:57:59,109 --> 00:57:57,280
we knew full well it wouldn't be the

1341
00:58:01,349 --> 00:57:59,119
last time we'd see him

1342
00:58:03,510 --> 00:58:01,359
as for rachel i didn't know when i'd

1343
00:58:06,390 --> 00:58:03,520
ever see her again but through her

1344
00:58:09,349 --> 00:58:06,400
experiences she taught me that no matter

1345
00:58:11,670 --> 00:58:09,359
the level of intensity of an experience

1346
00:58:12,870 --> 00:58:11,680
it was possible to move on with one's

1347
00:58:15,589 --> 00:58:12,880
life

1348
00:58:19,190 --> 00:58:15,599
this was something i wished for her more

1349
00:58:24,789 --> 00:58:21,349
we arrived at the train station just in

1350
00:58:27,109 --> 00:58:24,799
time andrea and mike hugged us goodbye

1351
00:58:30,230 --> 00:58:27,119
it had been a weekend of laughs

1352
00:58:32,230 --> 00:58:30,240
crying and everything in between

1353
00:58:34,829 --> 00:58:32,240
what mike had done by bringing us all

1354
00:58:37,670 --> 00:58:34,839
together was something truly

1355
00:58:40,470 --> 00:58:37,680
special it was a weekend of sharing

1356
00:58:41,990 --> 00:58:40,480
without any prompting pressure or

1357
00:58:43,990 --> 00:58:42,000
presumptions

1358
00:58:45,589 --> 00:58:44,000
and it had certainly changed all of us

1359
00:58:47,349 --> 00:58:45,599
in many ways

1360
00:58:50,309 --> 00:58:47,359
it was the beginning of friendships and

1361
00:58:52,870 --> 00:58:50,319
the strengthening of others and as we

1362
00:58:54,789 --> 00:58:52,880
pulled out of the train station i knew

1363
00:58:56,789 --> 00:58:54,799
that whatever the message was that these

1364
00:58:59,030 --> 00:58:56,799
phenomena were trying to convey

1365
00:59:01,270 --> 00:58:59,040
it was getting much louder the more i

1366
00:59:02,150 --> 00:59:01,280
engaged in the lives of those having

1367
00:59:07,190 --> 00:59:02,160
these

1368
00:59:08,630 --> 00:59:07,200
and perhaps i was engaging more openly

1369
00:59:12,549 --> 00:59:08,640
with the phenomena

1370
00:59:12,559 --> 00:59:18,150
that's it guys

1371
00:59:23,430 --> 00:59:20,150
is the chapter my weekend in the woods

1372
00:59:26,230 --> 00:59:23,440
with ufo abductees

1373
00:59:27,829 --> 00:59:26,240
i hope you enjoyed that

1374
00:59:30,390 --> 00:59:27,839
it was fun

1375
00:59:32,870 --> 00:59:30,400
i gotta say that was pretty fun

1376
00:59:33,829 --> 00:59:32,880
getting to share that with you guys um

1377
00:59:35,349 --> 00:59:33,839
you know

1378
00:59:37,430 --> 00:59:35,359
obviously the book goes into a lot more

1379
00:59:38,630 --> 00:59:37,440
detail with a lot of stuff but um i

1380
00:59:40,710 --> 00:59:38,640
thought that was one of the most

1381
00:59:42,870 --> 00:59:40,720
personal chapters of the book where i

1382
00:59:44,789 --> 00:59:42,880
actually was like embedded into the

1383
00:59:47,589 --> 00:59:44,799
lives of these people that i was would

1384
00:59:51,190 --> 00:59:47,599
eventually write about um so this was

1385
00:59:52,390 --> 00:59:51,200
quite a memorable experience for me um

1386
00:59:54,230 --> 00:59:52,400
i can't

1387
00:59:57,270 --> 00:59:54,240
thank mike enough if you're watching

1388
00:59:59,670 --> 00:59:57,280
this mike for allowing me to be a part

1389
01:00:01,430 --> 00:59:59,680
of this experience i was deeply honored

1390
01:00:03,109 --> 01:00:01,440
um it is something i will never forget i

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will never forget the stories you all

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01:00:05,589 --> 01:00:04,319
told me

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and um

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i hold them close to my heart and

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whatever has happened to you and

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rachel and andrea and everyone else that

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01:00:18,950 --> 01:00:15,760
has ever had a ufo

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abduction experience um

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i just wish you comfort and uh closure

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of some sort

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01:00:28,630 --> 01:00:24,799
um

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that there are people like me out there

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01:00:34,150 --> 01:00:31,040
willing to listen and to hear you out

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01:00:35,430 --> 01:00:34,160
and to um try to help you find answers i

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01:00:37,270 --> 01:00:35,440
can't pretend i'm gonna find those

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01:00:40,069 --> 01:00:37,280
answers but i can at least tell your

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01:00:41,990 --> 01:00:40,079
story and preserve it so um

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01:00:43,750 --> 01:00:42,000
yeah that's kind of what i learned from

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this experience is

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you know anything can happen and i

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01:00:49,589 --> 01:00:47,200
almost found myself in the shoes of an

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01:00:52,630 --> 01:00:49,599
experiencer that night whatever happened

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01:00:57,510 --> 01:00:52,640
or didn't happen i can't tell you but

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it stuck with me and i will never

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know what was beyond the window that

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01:01:03,829 --> 01:01:01,920
night if there was anything but uh i

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01:01:05,430 --> 01:01:03,839
didn't let the fear overcome me by the

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end of the trip and i think that's what

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01:01:11,750 --> 01:01:08,480
is most important is not letting fear

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01:01:13,270 --> 01:01:11,760
run our lives especially right now so

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yeah um

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that's about it guys that's all i've got

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for tonight so unless you have any

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01:01:21,750 --> 01:01:18,880
questions you want to throw in the chat

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01:01:24,549 --> 01:01:21,760
there um super sticker super chat r open

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01:01:27,430 --> 01:01:24,559
i'd be more than happy to um to answer

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01:01:30,150 --> 01:01:27,440
some of those um but yeah this was first

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01:01:32,309 --> 01:01:30,160
of what might be many others i'll share

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01:01:34,309 --> 01:01:32,319
more chapters from the book if you do

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01:01:36,549 --> 01:01:34,319
like this sort of stuff um

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01:01:39,030 --> 01:01:36,559
yeah yeah it was delightful

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01:01:41,829 --> 01:01:39,040
thank you esmeralda hillary said loved

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01:01:43,030 --> 01:01:41,839
it bien thank you thank you i appreciate

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01:01:45,190 --> 01:01:43,040
that guys

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01:01:47,190 --> 01:01:45,200
a51 watcher says another great job brian

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no wonder your sub count is getting so

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01:01:50,870 --> 01:01:48,400
big

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01:01:54,789 --> 01:01:50,880
that's very kind of you um yeah we're

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01:01:56,789 --> 01:01:54,799
almost up to i think it's 8k subscribers

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01:01:58,630 --> 01:01:56,799
so yeah guys if you're not subscribed to

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01:02:00,230 --> 01:01:58,640
the channel please do that right now

1442
01:02:02,789 --> 01:02:00,240
make sure you click the like button as

1443
01:02:04,950 --> 01:02:02,799
well um share this video with anyone you

1444
01:02:06,789 --> 01:02:04,960
think might find it interesting i would

1445
01:02:08,789 --> 01:02:06,799
certainly appreciate all of that and

1446
01:02:10,950 --> 01:02:08,799
let's see if we can get to 8k soon for

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01:02:13,270 --> 01:02:10,960
sure

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01:02:15,029 --> 01:02:13,280
um let's see a51 says i made a video

1449
01:02:17,829 --> 01:02:15,039
about alien abductions you can see it on

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01:02:21,029 --> 01:02:17,839
my channel feel free to comment oh yeah

1451
01:02:23,029 --> 01:02:21,039
that's cool a51 put your channel uh link

1452
01:02:26,150 --> 01:02:23,039
us to it in the chat there if you don't

1453
01:02:28,309 --> 01:02:26,160
mind would really really appreciate that

1454
01:02:29,829 --> 01:02:28,319
we'd love to check it out bien says do

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01:02:32,309 --> 01:02:29,839
you believe that window tapping was an

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01:02:34,549 --> 01:02:32,319
actual et experience

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01:02:35,589 --> 01:02:34,559
i don't know i mean let me go back

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01:02:37,670 --> 01:02:35,599
actually

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um

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to the first

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because

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if you

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look

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to the right of the house those two

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01:02:56,390 --> 01:02:54,160
windows to the right

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01:02:58,150 --> 01:02:56,400
that was our room um those are the

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01:03:00,390 --> 01:02:58,160
windows to our room

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01:03:02,789 --> 01:03:00,400
and as you can see

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01:03:03,829 --> 01:03:02,799
there's no trees in front of it or

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01:03:05,990 --> 01:03:03,839
anything

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01:03:08,390 --> 01:03:06,000
it was not like

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01:03:10,710 --> 01:03:08,400
hailing or really even snowing heavily

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01:03:12,950 --> 01:03:10,720
that night so i honestly couldn't tell

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01:03:16,630 --> 01:03:12,960
you what was tapping on the window

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01:03:19,829 --> 01:03:16,640
uh maybe a bird maybe an owl

1476
01:03:21,589 --> 01:03:19,839
mike clellan is known as the owl guy

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01:03:23,670 --> 01:03:21,599
um who has written

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01:03:27,029 --> 01:03:23,680
several books now on the connection

1479
01:03:29,270 --> 01:03:27,039
between ufo abductions and owls

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01:03:32,789 --> 01:03:29,280
and uh sort of the symbolism that they

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01:03:35,109 --> 01:03:32,799
have within ufo culture and um history

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01:03:36,870 --> 01:03:35,119
uh so i don't know i honestly don't know

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01:03:38,789 --> 01:03:36,880
bn i don't know what was tapping out

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01:03:40,870 --> 01:03:38,799
there but it scared the crap out of me

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01:03:45,190 --> 01:03:40,880
um but by the end i did not let it did

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01:03:47,589 --> 01:03:45,200
not let it uh scare me so yeah

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01:03:48,950 --> 01:03:47,599
please do this more as miranda says i

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01:03:53,029 --> 01:03:48,960
will

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01:03:56,230 --> 01:03:53,039
um

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01:04:01,910 --> 01:03:58,789
a51 says it's my username on youtube

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01:04:06,549 --> 01:04:01,920
awesome guys go check out a51 watchers

1492
01:04:09,990 --> 01:04:08,309
let's see hillary says oh wow that's

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01:04:12,789 --> 01:04:10,000
even creepier i assumed you were on the

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01:04:14,150 --> 01:04:12,799
first floor no no we were up a floor so

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01:04:15,990 --> 01:04:14,160
i don't know what the hell could have

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01:04:18,390 --> 01:04:16,000
been happening on that window or what

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01:04:20,230 --> 01:04:18,400
was under the the door frame that

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01:04:22,230 --> 01:04:20,240
freaked me out even more

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01:04:24,630 --> 01:04:22,240
um i asked everyone the next morning

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01:04:26,390 --> 01:04:24,640
like did was anyone up at night like

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01:04:28,390 --> 01:04:26,400
going through the hallways and i was

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01:04:30,950 --> 01:04:28,400
like no we were all

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01:04:33,029 --> 01:04:30,960
in in bed and i was like oh could it

1504
01:04:35,109 --> 01:04:33,039
have been spazzy could have been spazzy

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01:04:37,349 --> 01:04:35,119
the cat and mike was like no spazzy

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01:04:38,710 --> 01:04:37,359
stays in our room um and we shut our

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01:04:40,789 --> 01:04:38,720
door every night because we don't want

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01:04:42,630 --> 01:04:40,799
her like wandering while there's guests

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01:04:44,470 --> 01:04:42,640
and stuff so

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01:04:46,710 --> 01:04:44,480
i don't know i don't know that's what i

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01:04:48,950 --> 01:04:46,720
get for going to a weekend retreat with

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01:04:52,230 --> 01:04:48,960
a bunch of alien abductees

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01:04:54,470 --> 01:04:52,240
oh man man yeah it was an interesting

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01:04:56,710 --> 01:04:54,480
weekend to say the least you know and i

1515
01:04:58,069 --> 01:04:56,720
always struggle to like

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01:05:00,309 --> 01:04:58,079
did

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01:05:02,789 --> 01:05:00,319
these stories i heard

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01:05:04,069 --> 01:05:02,799
uh prior to that window dabbing and

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01:05:06,390 --> 01:05:04,079
everything um

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01:05:09,670 --> 01:05:06,400
influenced me in some way

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01:05:11,589 --> 01:05:09,680
possibly uh i i can't tell you but um it

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01:05:12,870 --> 01:05:11,599
was an intense fear like i'd never felt

1523
01:05:13,910 --> 01:05:12,880
before so

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01:05:15,910 --> 01:05:13,920
so yeah

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01:05:17,589 --> 01:05:15,920
gosh

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01:05:20,950 --> 01:05:17,599
scares me right now

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01:05:24,470 --> 01:05:22,549
awesome

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01:05:27,510 --> 01:05:24,480
all right guys well i think i'm gonna

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01:05:29,349 --> 01:05:27,520
call it a night we hit the hour mark um

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01:05:30,950 --> 01:05:29,359
and this was a lot of fun so i want to

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01:05:34,150 --> 01:05:30,960
thank you for joining me tonight for

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01:05:35,430 --> 01:05:34,160
this very special live stream uh again

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01:05:36,710 --> 01:05:35,440
please tell your friends about the

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01:05:38,630 --> 01:05:36,720
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1535
01:05:40,549 --> 01:05:38,640
and make sure you liked the video make

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01:05:42,390 --> 01:05:40,559
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01:05:44,309 --> 01:05:42,400
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01:05:47,670 --> 01:05:44,319
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01:05:49,829 --> 01:05:47,680
with new videos and uh yeah try to stay

1540
01:05:52,470 --> 01:05:49,839
happy try to stay positive out there we

1541
01:05:54,630 --> 01:05:52,480
need that right now and um

1542
01:05:56,870 --> 01:05:54,640
and yeah i i really appreciate your time

1543
01:05:58,789 --> 01:05:56,880
tonight and for joining me and spending

1544
01:06:00,309 --> 01:05:58,799
your night with me here at summer in the

1545
01:06:02,470 --> 01:06:00,319
sky so um

1546
01:06:04,710 --> 01:06:02,480
if that's it no more questions in the

1547
01:06:07,430 --> 01:06:04,720
chat no um i'm gonna call it a night

1548
01:06:09,990 --> 01:06:07,440
guys um if you want to listen to the

1549
01:06:13,029 --> 01:06:10,000
podcast it's available wherever you get

1550
01:06:15,910 --> 01:06:13,039
podcasts um our latest episode

1551
01:06:18,150 --> 01:06:15,920
was about all the scientific discoveries

1552
01:06:19,990 --> 01:06:18,160
and space exploration going on right now

1553
01:06:21,670 --> 01:06:20,000
that christopher plane the head science

1554
01:06:23,990 --> 01:06:21,680
writer at the debrief has been writing

1555
01:06:26,390 --> 01:06:24,000
about some really cool stories um some

1556
01:06:29,510 --> 01:06:26,400
new discoveries of a new planet within

1557
01:06:31,910 --> 01:06:29,520
proxima centauri and a new exoplanet

1558
01:06:34,789 --> 01:06:31,920
very similar to tatooine the famous

1559
01:06:36,710 --> 01:06:34,799
planet from star wars and um

1560
01:06:40,870 --> 01:06:36,720
also a story about how we might be

1561
01:06:43,109 --> 01:06:40,880
extraterrestrial to our own planet um

1562
01:06:44,309 --> 01:06:43,119
yeah so it was an exciting episode i

1563
01:06:47,910 --> 01:06:44,319
hope you'll check it out it's in the

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01:06:49,349 --> 01:06:47,920
archives right now um that's it hillary

1565
01:06:51,109 --> 01:06:49,359
says thanks ryan thanks for the

1566
01:06:53,430 --> 01:06:51,119
nightmare fuel you're very welcome

1567
01:06:56,710 --> 01:06:53,440
hillary you're very very welcome go take

1568
01:06:59,430 --> 01:06:56,720
your uh your cbd gummy and and calm down

1569
01:07:00,470 --> 01:06:59,440
for the night um that's gonna be it guys

1570
01:07:03,109 --> 01:07:00,480
so again

1571
01:07:04,950 --> 01:07:03,119
from my heart to yours thank you so much

1572
01:07:09,109 --> 01:07:04,960
for joining me tonight and i will leave

1573
01:07:10,870 --> 01:07:09,119
you as always with our um our our slogan

1574
01:07:12,950 --> 01:07:10,880
here at summer in the skies keep your

1575
01:07:15,190 --> 01:07:12,960
feet on the ground but never stop

1576
01:07:21,109 --> 01:07:15,200
searching somewhere in the skies have a

1577
01:07:26,470 --> 01:07:23,270
hey guys ryan here the summer in the

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01:07:28,630 --> 01:07:26,480
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1579
01:07:31,109 --> 01:07:28,640
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01:07:33,829 --> 01:07:31,119
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01:07:35,910 --> 01:07:33,839
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01:07:53,109 --> 01:07:51,440
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